
Friday, December 28, 2007
Ring The Cowsills Into The Rock 'n' Roll Hall of Fame This New Year's

Thursday, December 27, 2007
It's What We Believe About Animals That Is Wild

With all due respect to the victims of the tiger attack and their families-
Not long ago I was reading the latest newsletter of our local zoo. The photo accompanying the article (unfortunately for me) illustrated how the zoo has changed over the years. Although not exactly spelled out, I know that the changes reflected the difference between how we perceived our role among wild animals in captivity when the zoo was first created and now. To be brief, the focus then was on creating a 'zoological park'; the emphasis was on making an appealing flow of foot traffic. The walkways were straight and led into clusters of cages/exhibits or gardens/fountains/ponds to break up the monotony. In other words, the park focused on creating a display that appealed to the consumer.
But as times changed, effort was made to ensure the relevance of the zoo as a viable form of entertainment. The old zoo system must have been perceived as quaint and even cruel, as it seemed to encourage a sense of subduing or conquering of the wild. Perhaps it conjured up images of the big game hunter demonstrating his prowess in the last great wild frontier, stuffed heads displayed over his mantel and bearskin carpeting his floor. The new system reflected a more progressive (read 'kinder, gentler') stance; it stood to swing diametrically in the other direction, raising the image of the captive beast to that of unwitting victim, nature's survivor, the endangered species now fated to live out its life in captivity as it had become impossile to live as it had in the wild.

For reasons that I don't understand, we seem as a society to be given to extreme and radical responses to the questions of our times. While it's true that an era now ended saw animals as something to be conqured, a creature to prove dominion over, those of our own time seems bent on forcing the wild into an equally abhorrent caricature, that of the hapless victim requiring our strategic planning to ensure its very survival. Neither of these views are entirely correct.

Whether someone is culpable in the recent tiger attack remains to be seen. But whether habitat design or human misbehavior contributed to the animal's violent response, one thing is certain; either scenario underestimates the unpredictability of what we used to call 'nature'. I don't mean 'nature' as in 'mother nature', but the word we use to describe what someone or something is liable to do. Wild animals are beautiful and they do entertain us, but they never lose their nature. And here's another fact that is bound to frustrate our litigation-silly culture; you can't sue an animal! Isn't that amazing? There are no laws or rules to govern the behavior of animals. There are all kinds of laws to govern the behavior of humans, who, incidentally, have a nature, as well.

Today, when I visit our zoo (I can call it ours, since my commitment goes above and beyond the price of admission) certain glaring differences from the way it was when I was a kid are apparent; less use of 'houses' (remember the monkey house, or the reptile house, or the bird house?). If houses are used at all anymore, they are used as souvenir shops or grudgingly for animals whose habitat is more easily adapted to it. I photographed empty cages in a house the last time I was there. The architecture, by the way, was gorgeous, if you like that sort of thing (and I do)- lots of deco light and shadow play. Another difference is an increase in the language of conservation and recycling- good habits in and of themselves. I have no complaint against them. The only thing is that I often feel chided when I walk around and have to be reminded that my decision to clothe my children in disposable diapers has an impact on the ecology. There is also a greater ephasis on fundraising and all of it in the name of protecting wildlife for future generations. What happened to the resources that weren't used to protect them for this generation? To put it another way, how did they ever make it without us?

I was a kid once, going through my dad's collection of National Geographics. Less a sense of entitlement or a need to dominate, their approach was to learn from and appreciate the wild, but never to lose sight of the fact that there is the nature to contend with. There was never anyone to blame but ourselves in case a mishap should occur. Even our domesticated pets had a nature that could not be denied, but now they are a member of the family and thereby entitled to as full a life of possibilities as our children, complete with health insurance and dental plan.
I guess that's what bothers me the most; it's not that I belong to one side of this issue and it seems we are losing debate in the court of public opinion, it's that as I grow older I continue to realize that from generation to generation as we advance in technology we regress in plain old fashioned horse-sense. We literally forget from generation to generation the things about ourselves and the world around us that are wonderful to know. Like amnesiacs we need to relearn things we should have had all along. But those voices in our culture- Madison Avenue, political affiliation and lobbiest influences, the media and even organized religion make us to be less than animals. They bring shame to our very existence when they tell us to not behave according to our nature and not to expect other species to act according to theirs.

Thursday, December 20, 2007
Ride To Chemo Brings Positive Christmas Memory
I wanted to mention as I wrap this up that I wish it was much better written, more polished. I don't always have the luxury of the second draft. But this topic wouldn't be complete unless I mentioned about the oxygen bottles. One of my roles as 'Tank Tonto' was to go to the hospital to trade out empty bottles for full. It meant going through to the old neighborhood hospital complex and sometimes parking a way's out to do this errand. It meant walking through the neighborhood and passing by homes decked out for Christmas. As somber as it seemed my errand was, I wondered what sort of challenges were behind the doors I passed. I knew we were not the only ones struggling with illness and I hoped the others bore up ok as well.
The oxygen bottles rolled loose on the floor of my van until I got home to unload them. I remember hitting the brakes and hearing this clang like a bell. I would think about how the tops of those things could shoot off under pressure and do me some damage. Again, Christmas decorations in the hospital oxygen department, along with a conversation with one of the techs I was familiar with; no, people who are on oxygen don't usually go off it again.
Driving through Chicago after work I would pass a tiny church. The sign out in front said it was Pentecostal, and that is what I considered myself to be. To make a long story short, this church represented the next step toward my life today. I used to think about and pray for the people who attended there. I imagined families generations deep who attended there. I met a nice girl there who thought it strange that a single man such as myself would drive a minivan, when he had no family; "looks kind of strange, you know?", she would say. Funny, it never occured to me. At that time in my life it seemed to fit me pretty well.
I made a vow a while back not to ever post music on this site. I am going to break that promise today. I won't promote it, and I won't provide links for you to buy it. But if you'd like to, you can hear a different Christmas song that was significant to me and my mom by clicking on each of the pictures on this post. I hope not to be fined for using copyrighted music. Maybe the association would understand, it being Christmas and all. -Joe
Friday, December 14, 2007
New CD Titles Can Feed Children Half A World Away


Oh yes, Christmas is a time of giving. Sometimes we give out of gratitude and sometimes we give out of our need, demonstrating faith that our own need will be met. This Christmas, I decided to ramp up my involvement with Feeding Children Worldwide, my favorite nonprofit humanitarian organization, by offering new CD titles I have produced, with a portion of the proceeds benefitting their efforts to relieve global hunger. Specifically, the funding will go toward sponsoring food packing, where local groups can pack the actual food made available to feeding programs working in distressed areas.
Our very first title is 'Rikki Tikki Tavi', a children's audiobook, featuring the classic Kipling tale of a courageous pet and the family he protects from a cunning snake. The disc has about an hour's material and is read by Miss Natasha of Storynory (see Prince Bertie the Frog).
The music title is the work of Quietus, a prog-rock band and friends of mine. Their EP release is titled 'Neverending Game' and features 4 songs with about 15 minutes of music. The revenues of both discs benefit FCW and are available at amazon.com, but if purchased from our estore, FCW will receive more of the profits.
Both discs are professionally produced and the material is top-notch. I have enclosed samples at the bottom of the page. Click on the title covers to go to our estore. Both titles are very gift-worthy, not second-rate projects and the monies go to a worthy cause- what have you got to lose? Send out a little karma this season, and a Merry Christmas to you!

Click on Prince Bertie the Frog to go to Storynory web site (with thanks to Hugh & Matthew!)
Thursday, December 13, 2007
On A Cold Chicago Morning, Gratitude
There is nothing bleaker than a mid-winter day in Chicago. And it seems that even though it's getting pretty close to Christmas the streets and buildings and backyards dusted with snow evoke the hardness of the season. Think about the opening of 'Good Times', which was filmed in Chicago; the sun filtering through the cold air seems to mock you as you make your way from one place to another.
Another particular about living in Chicago is that every resident is a student of history. The city literally unfolds his past from the lakeshore outward. From the suburbs backward to the lake the buildings get older, the streets & alleys narrower and garages modified to fit cars newer than a Model A. The older buildings, especially those still heated with steam, bring up their past in the form of odors; like the memories themselves, they are heavy and unyielding. The smell of old varnish. Paint. Wallpaper paste. A variety of pest controls. Floor tile adhesive. These raise the familiar ghosts of memory whenever a renovation is undertaken that exposes multiple coats of paint, numerous layers of wallpaper, even 3 or 4 recoverings of linoleum.
This was my experience while watching the WTTW production of 'Angels Too Soon' a documentary of the beyond tragic parochial school fire that claimed lives, devastated families and communities and ushered in a whole new wave of fire safety reforms.
The topic of the Our Lady of the Angels fire of December 1st, 1958 is so well covered in print and on line that I won't attempt to rework the issue here. You can find some helpful links at the bottom of this page if you want to research it.
One can't help watching a documentary like that, although your keener sense tells you to look away. The images are so pregnant with memory: the period styles of hair and dress; the lumbering round cars loping through the streets; familiar Chicago intersections and of course the children. When it comes to children, there is no 'us' and 'them'; all children are our children. That's the way it is in a community and I don't suggest that it's exclusive of Chicago. But here is where this happened; the tragedy and the aftermath are our own.
Pictures now faded and grainy remind us of the promise of possibilities. Film footage reveals accents and neighborhood dialects that indicate an inner-city substructure of solid working-class families. More was devastated than people, than families; a community and a parish were drastically altered.
But beyond all that, remembrance of the infamous fire of OLA brings something more to me than the sheer horror of the event. Because I know a survivor of that school fire, it brings me a personal sense of gratitude.
I have looked over at my friend worshiping at our church; I know her mother, her brother and husband. Her family has been like family to me, and it is because of this that I cannot waste too much time contemplating the why's of life; I simply respond in gratitude. I choose a simple, almost childlike response.
When I was a child and my own sister would come home for a visit, it was in the cold of midwinter that I remember best the hugs; that's because you could take in this embrace with all your senses, but particularly your nose, which reported to you a heady and complex wonderful elixer of cologne, of coffee and cigarette smoke and the cold itself. The cold, for lack of a more graphic description, smells like cream to me. That was my sister, more than in name or face or activity; it was her in essence, as though you could smell the love, the peace and lack of conflict.
In an inate sort of way I am embracing a family in thought today. We are all Chicagoans, although I have transplanted a little ways north of town. We have roots here, memories. Our common experiences celebrated the joys of life and mourned the reality of loss. But there is one thing among us, more often unspoken than spoken, and every Christmas season it arrives like the early winter snow- it's gratitude that our friend, our daughter, sister and wife came home on that day and is with us still.
I don't know why tragedies happen or why one family is touched and another is not. Frankly, that begins to matter very little. Life and living become less a matter of what could have been, less a gradation of shades and more black and white. What could have happened, didn't.
http://www.chipublib.org/004chicago/disasters/text/code.html
Read the Chicago City Council Amendment to Chapter 78 of the Municipal Code, 1959
Saturday, July 21, 2007
In Memoriam

Thursday, June 28, 2007
When The Shoe Fits, Make Sure The Bag Matches

Certain ads, repeatedly played through the evening, were beginning to genuinely annoy me.



I got myself a blank cassette, and the next time she called, I had the girls put her on 'speaker' and recorded the whole conversation, just let her vent and babble along. All her classic shtick; the Chinese girl routine, the 'I could get you fired", "my dad is president", etc. Now, I understand this would not hold up as evidence in court, but a lawsuit was not what I was after. It was to end the annoyance of the pest.
One day, I come in to work. My boss shakes my cassette at me; "That girl called again last night, you know. I told her, 'hey, I've got something you should hear' and played the tape. She hung up and didn't call back no more!"

I had her.
It was the daughter of the company president.
How did I know that? Local girl, dad is president, familiar with and able to buy high-priced fashions, very materially-oriented. Dad probably had the office number on speed-dial. She was bored (maybe resented) being left alone at home on the weekends, which was also a clue. If she was too young to make her own plans while the family was out of the house that would have put her at just about the right age.
I made a number of assumptions. Maybe I jumped to a lot of conclusions. One was that we, the nameless unwashed masses, were the topic of discussion around the family dinner table. That there was a sense that there is a fundamental difference between them and us, a gap that would never be bridged. We had our purpose, like a boot-wipe would, but we didn't really have the respect of the 'first family', as it were.

That hurt. And it opened my eyes. That's why no one can ever convince me otherwise. I've been told that the wealthy are among the very hardest-working, thrifty-but-generous and gracious people one would ever want to meet. Philanthropists (did I spell that right?) all. That may be true; I don't think I have any in my circle to ask. But these folks who are a little lower on the rungs, like the upper-middle class (or upper-upper, if you like) are like this; they'll see you work like a dog, they won't speak into your life or mentor you regarding your erroneous attitudes toward money, they will never really tell you you're doing a great job and they will be sure to satiate themselves and their own at the trough before you even get a crumb. And sometimes, just for sport, they will deny you that as well.

And what happened to the tape? Well, I gave it to our president's assistant. Told him all about the situation, because I thought it was uncool for someone to toy with another person's livelihood. He assured me he would take care of it, and boy, did he.
The tape disappeared, and the matter was never discussed again.
Friday, June 1, 2007
Quietus- Rock Heard 'Round The World






Monday, May 21, 2007
James Jamerson, Motown's Unsung Hero

Friday, May 18, 2007
The Second Coming



I guess you could say I'm perturbed- like I said, I'm not a bootlegger selling my wares out on the street corner, so it doesn't faze me. But to think back on my history with the music industry- I've been a good, a pretty regular customer for as long as I can remember. Bought albums, and bought them again. Bought 'em to give away as gifts. Replaced worn out copies. Collected specialty items. In other words, my eggs for this industry were pretty golden.

No problem. Middle-age tells you something else;
there are more important things out there.